Dealing With Distance

Some lovers cuddle, others talk on the phone. Distance can be cruel. It can be frustrating. It can be messy, but there's one thing it is not: Distance is not a love killer. Hear me out, I'll tell you why.

I'm stubborn. I'm needy. I'm mean. I'm honest. I'm faithful. I'm emotional. I'm scary. I'm demanding. I'm independent. I'm angry. I'm beautiful. I'm ugly. I'm lazy. I'm crazy. I'm all of these things, and sometimes none at all. I'm flawed. I'm imperfect. I'm real. And he loves me for each and every one of my moods, my loves, my needs, my desires, my idiosyncrasies.

He just does.

And he shows me every chance he gets.

I'm not perfect. I get frustrated with the distance. I get angry that he left. I throw it in his face. I scream at him. I tell him off. I hang up on him. I stop texting him. I delete him from my phone as if that would delete him from my life.

And still.

I think of him. I think of him because I love him.

And I can't imagine my life without his voice, his laugh, his love.

Some people get hugs. I get calls. Some people cuddle at night. I hear him snoring through the headphones - a million miles away yet so very close. Some people make love. I only wish I did. Some people have it all. I have even more. Because even though he's in Montana and I'm in Vegas, even though we're not physically together, I've never felt closer to another person before. I've never been so honest. I've never been so open. Because the distance opened me up. We didn't have the physical aspect of our relationship, so all we had was us. Unfiltered, unedited, fearless us.

I've ruined all of my relationships with my unapologetic attitude, my ruthless candor, my sarcastic humor, and I'm grateful for each and every ruined mess. Because I have him. I have me. I have us. And I'm happier than I've ever been.

Distance can't ruin something so real. Distance can't make you un-love someone. Distance can't keep lovers apart. But distance can bring you closer than ever.

Because all you do is talk. And all you want is each other.

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